28 Questions Q26 | 06+18+19

Q26: What parts of yourself are you ashamed of? What does your reflection in the mirror show?

A26: I am not ashamed of anything! My reflection shows…….

OKAY, I need you to understand that I am not ashamed of a single thing! I have done what I have done and that is that. It has made me who I am and lead me to this place and time and I would not change that! Of course I would love to have my children but I know that this is the way God has intended for my life to go and that things will be as they should be when the time is right.

I was ashamed of my life 6 months ago but I am no longer ashamed of the fact that I did drugs or anything else that came with it. I have moved on from those dark days.

My reflection shows a woman of 31 years with tears, heartache, love, joy, struggles and dreams! It shows blue eyes that hold a million tears, a smile that is slowly becoming real again, and a person who truly wants the best for those around her. It shows someone who has been homeless and hungry, high and out of her mind, and most of all someone who has overcome the darkest days of her life thus so far!

My reflection someone I am proud to stare back at!

That is all for now

@chic_sober

28 Questions Q1 | 5+24+19

I think we all forget to remind ourselves sometimes that we are good & beautiful. So for the lack there of I decided to answer 28 Questions that are related to me, myself, & I.

I found this idea on Pintrest and think it’s going to really open up my mind to see that I have come a long way and that I am still a good person even though I have made some really bad choices. I hope maybe you will enjoy getting to know me a little better too. These answer’s may be short and then again they may be long, but guarantee they will be a reflection of me and honest!

Q1: What is your biggest struggle with loving yourself?

A1: Its’ not that I don’t love myself, because I do. But there are many different parts of me that I don’t feel secure about. I have messed up so drastically in the recent years that I feel like I am so very much imperfect. Physically I love myself. I consider myself attractive & a beautiful person. Internally I am a good person but I have just made so many wrong choices and this makes it a bit harder to really say that I love myself. Now, I am starting to love myself again so that is progress. I can look in the mirror now and be content with the woman staring back at me. I can look at her and know that she is taking steps every day to be a better person than she used to be. I just still have many things to make up for before I can really love myself. I am my biggest struggle. Because I can’t love myself until I have corrected the wrongs for losing who I was before the drugs and bullshit life I was living that caused me to lose my children. I am making hella progress but I’m not fully there yet.