Q22: What things make you feel bad, but you find yourself doing them anyway?
A22: Thinking of my kids and looking through our pictures!
I cannot help it. I miss their faces, their smiles, I miss every single thing about each one of them but I should not mentally mess myself up and sit and look through our pictures for hours.

I always end up crying and angry for a time and that leaves me just in a horrid state of mind. But i do that day in and day out because I know that for every moment that I sit and cry it only pushes me harder to do my best for them to bring them back home to me.
So yeah, its bad for me. But I do it anyways.
That is all for now