These images I’m sharing are hard to look at. What you are seeing is my downfall and my rise above through pictures. The top row is from December 2016 thorough March 2018! This was 27 months of pure hell and I still continued on for another 11, months making it a total of 34 months!!! The bottom row is just the last few months pictures from June – August! I started out with massive pain pill addiction from percacets to Roxy’s and During my most active addiction days I was a heavy Meth user. I battled with depression, suscide, and losing my children which was almost the death of me. I was down to 98 lbs and did not even know if I was going to live or die! I felt guilty, unloved, ashamed, and like I couldn’t find peace or a way out of the world I was living!
But God has delivered me of my addictions and I have been given a chance at life and I want to show the world just how great, kind, forgiving, & loving our Lord & Savior really is! I’ve never step foot into a rehab nor have I ever attended a meeting for my addiction. I have asked God to forgive me of my sins and deliver me a clean heart! And he has! I am #175dayssober and I don’t have desire to use or go back to that life! I am happy, healthy, loving, and ALIVE! Everyday I follow the plan God has sent for me and I survive and I add another day to my life! I know #recoveryispossible and I will soon see my children again. If you are struggling with addiction of any kind and you think you can handle it you are wrong! If you think you are managing you are wrong! If you think you still love you family,friends, and especially your children the same way you are wrong! You love that addiction more than anything else while you are using and that won’t change until you MAKE THAT CHOICE TO STOP! But you can stop! I am just an ordinary woman but I want you to all see that it is possible to beat the Devil and start #beatingaddiction.
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That wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be…
But that is the post that I shared on my IG (you can find the orginal post HERE) the other day. It is a collage of me in some of my worst active addiction days and then some of my best of me now.
Now, don’t get me wrong I know I have a long way to go but what I am trying to share is that there is hope for you to recover! I want you to see that I am not some person being paid on a commerical for a rehab center, I am a real person!
I have Gone from the top to deepest bottom and then come to rise above it all. These words I’m saying aren’t to sell you something or try to get you to subscribe! They are just me telling you exactly how I feel.
There are addicts right now struggling with wanting to get clean and not knowing what to do or that they can even do it because they have tried before and failed!
I did too!
But I want those people to know that there is a way out! There is a chance at life after addiction. There are steps, decisions, choices, and plans to make that will allow you to live a life full of pride, intergity, honesty, love, compassion, and so much more! Everyone is different and some will need more help but I assure you that if you WANT to stop you can do so! I want to help you and I want you to know you are not alone!
That is all for now